Xentales

I had an electric weekend.



On Friday night, I fell fast asleep around 21:00 hours and slept til the next day, 14:00 hours. I woke and took a shower, got dressed, and then drove out to the venue in which "The Nightmare Before Christmas" was being held...




The event was so much fun. It was a birthday party for Drumlojik (Jeremy) and was very small. There was less than 500 people there, so everyone that I saw was someone I knew or was aqquainted with. Very nice to have a party like that.

I spent the night hanging out with Cody and Matt(E). We all worked and listened to some really sick breakbeats til around 02:00 in the morning. Then, Merryl jumped on the decks and threw on some hard drum n bass. Amazing sets, i promise you!

Afterwards, the party was shut down at 04:00 since there's a no dance law in utah county anytime after 02:00. LAME. We drove to a friend's afterparty/ birthday party, where i played records for a bunch of rollers. Rob's house is perfect for parties, because its secluded and simple. Love Sacs were everywhere, pillows, blankets. Just a really chill atmosphere. I didn't go home until 11:00 that morning, then ate some food and crashed until around 18:00.

Now I'm just sitting here and realizing just how wonderful my friends are...

*Sigh*

ho...ho...wench.


merry christmas.

a day late.

a buck short.

;D



today = fun day. last night = one of the best nights of my life, BY FAR...




Roooooar.

<3

The life of a Rockstar has been "rocked" out.

New Years Eve was work, work and more work. Random calls throughout the night while I was working behind the o2 bar.
" Come to this after party!" They all say. They write their numbers down on cards or paper that they find, and hand it to me over the bar. I smile, and say " I'll let you know."

After the party gets broken up at 3:00 AM by the Police because of an accident nearby, I begin to break down the Red O2 bar. The world is spinning while everyone is rushing, people are yelling "Sarah, make sure you get everything!"

I turn around, check the lovesac behind the bar, and realize something.
Something is missing.

No..not the keys to my car. Not my wallet, or my ID, or anything of that sort.

Tiara was laying on that lovesac five minutes ago.
I didn't see her leave.

No answers to texts. No pick ups from calls.

I'm scared.

Tiara has been missing since last night, and we're all panicking to find her.

New Xbox gamertag.


If you want it,

let me know.


Hahar.

It's been a long time since I've posted something here.

And so here it is...
To be quite and completely honest...

I don't know why I even post here anymore. It feels like I fell out of the game a while ago, but I really would like to begin playing again (for seriousness)!

As for myself, my life is complicating itself by the minute. I don't know how to fix things, but believe me, I'm trying to.

Tiara was never found and is now a missing person in Utah. The hope of finding her is lost in me...How f- up is that?

I've spent a lot of time working and being by myself lately. I don't find the warmth of comfort enjoyable anymore.
I feel numb inside. Ever so sweetly numb. But it's not the kind of numb where I would ever want to "kill myself" or anything of that sort.
I just don't think I can be what anyone ever needs.

I also feel bad for not keeping in touch with my old friends on here.
But I will not offer an apology because an apology is a too easy to throw down, misunderstood (because saying sorry doesn't make everything better, right?) and too simple to forget about.

I'll man up, take it like a bitch, and deal with it. If you have something to say, say it.

I promise I'll be honest and won't bite too hard.

There's a difference between feeling like your life is pathetic and when your life is missing something.


I would have a lot to say about you; that you're a f- asshole, that you spend too much time worrying about yourself and not anyone else. You jump to conclusions. You call me a bitch. Well guess what? I don't care if you really think I'm a bitch or not. Because if I was a bitch, you wouldn't be talking to me. You wouldn't NEED to talk to me. And yet, you do. Why? Maybe you're addicted to the sound of your own voice in your head, refuting mine. Or maybe, you just want to hear me sad.

Just go find yourself a skank, a street walker to invest in.

Beacuse in all reality...Who could ever really love you for who you really are?

I know I couldn't.

I can't.

I stopped a long time ago, because the real REAL you was too much for me to handle. No, not handle.

Deal with.

You gotta pay the price for love.
And your buck fifty doesn't do any good here.


/ End rant

I'm not sorry for the way I make you feel.

You read my journal and think that every little thing is directed towards you... in lieu of me being in love with you (yeah righ!).

The last entry, was directed towards you, indefinitely.
Ah yes.



Your lack of texts, emails, messages.

One. Big. Relief.


So lift the rug, dust whatever is left of our "friendship" under it, and then walk the f- away.

I'm done with your egotistical, self centered, self absorbed, macho "i'm far more superior than you" attitude.

If you were more superior, you wouldn't be crawling back.

So good day, to you.
And may you enjoy the rest of your life realizing what kinds of things you've done to other people to make them hate you.

HAPPY POST!!


New turntables. Aaaaw yeah.

Does anyone know how to stream live audio from your computer online?

I have my turntables up. I would love to play live sets for my friends in different states, and I have tried to get it to feed into the computer and onto winamp or something, but no luck.

Help?

Acidic...

Good god, I haven't laughed so hard in so long.

NEW FAVORITE SONG!!



Deekline vs. Wizard - All your love

http://www.chemical-records.co.uk/sc/se ... S2053W&S=A

Either way it's suicide...
Cars drive through in real time
You choose the stars in blue and white
I love you `til im dead inside
Plastic eyes look milky white
And the violence makes things hard to hide
Our pale faces sink in time
Either way its suicide


I`m gonna jump the next train
Gonna jump on a plane
Take a ticket to the other side
Jump the next train


Touch `til hot times smack me up
And cigarettes taste good tonight
Modern girl its time to go
Either way ill let you know
We wake up to a polaroid
And the blank eyes stare at something new
Little unit dont let go
All I really want is you


I`m gonna jump the next train
Gonna jump on a plane
Take a ticket to the other side
Jump the next train

I finally found a version of that song ^^ that i put into a trance mix (what? Sarah do trance??)... I have to say that the mixing is a bit choppy, but the track selection won't let you down.

Interested? PM for details.

Added after 8 minutes:

Oceanlab ft. Justine Suissa

My love is like footsteps in the snow... baby,
I follow you everywhere you go...baby,
The pain inside has come to wake you,
but you will never realize...
That I inspire the dreams that guide you...baby

I follow the winds that bring the cold
I light a fire in your soul
The lightest touch of feathers falling,
My love may be invisible,
but I inspire the dreams that guide you...baby.

You're half a world away...
but in my mind, I whisper every single word you say
And before you sleep at night...
You pray to me, your lucky star,
your singing satellite.

Current Deep Trance song stuck in my head:

Armin Van Buuren ft. Justine Suissa - "Burned with Desire"

For each forgotten kiss
For all the memories
For all the times a look
Said all we had to say

You played your part so well
A modern Romeo
You came on Cupid's wings
And then you flew away

When you touch my face
When you call my name
I burned with desire

When you touch my face
When you call my name
I burned with desire
But you left me in the rain

For every sleepless night
Forever in your arms
For every hour spent
Lost in the reverie

You broke your promises
No shame and no regrets
You burned the bridges too
An endless mystery

When you touch my face
So beautiful
When you call my name
My name..
I burned with desire

When you touch my face
So beautiful
When you call my name
My name..
I burned with desire
But you left me in the rain

When you touch my face
So beautiful
When you call my name
My name..
I burned with desire

When you touch my face
When you call my name
I burned with desire
But you left me in the rain

I used to drive around in the snow and this song would randomly shuffle on my iPod and blast through my speakers.
Aww. I miss winter already.

Bitch. I'll kill you.


;D


Moving to California in 12 days.

Moo.

I take off to California in 2 days. I'm a bit nervous about it. Especially since my financial situation has gone downhill.

For the record.

Markus and I dont have SHIT going on.

I just hung out with him twice. And he automatically thinks i want to be with him.

not meaning to be rude - but I think I would have better things to do than to be with a 17 year old.

douchebaggery. absolute f- douchbaggery!

seriously? what kind of nut are you? after hanging out with you, you automatically assume that theres something between us? no! no no no!

dont be so f- stupid to assume things. i have NO feelings for you. NONE.

i do have better things to do, like live my life. you really think that you can accomidate yours to mine? are you kidding?

i hate to tell you the truth, but i know and just about everyone else knows that i'm too good for that. you couldnt keep up with me, mentally, financially, or even in a general sense of reality.

you have nothing to offer.

is that so hard to understand?

your force yourself onto me and i pull away. does that not mean anything to you? youre pushy. you talk to me like this is what i want. its not. get over it.

dont tell me that im the only girl you let into your life. i dont care if i am or not, i dont want to be in your life!

i have someone else that i am already committed to and you just cant accept that. even if we are miles apart, i wouldnt date you in hopes of "something working out."

face it.

20>17


oh , and you write stupid enough things in your journal that make everyone think you slept with me.

i wouldnt f- you with flipps penis.



and if you can do much better, then why the f- dont YOU move on?

oh my god. what have I done?

I'm torn between two lovers...
one younger, one older.

both of them have amazingly sexy accents.

but I'm sorry, sam. caseys minge makes me happy.

:]

f- you, California!


Hawaii, here I come!

flight leaves tomorrow at 7:00 am.

Damn!

Hawaii had to end.

Back in shithole Rancho.

VEGAS! SEE YOU ON FRIDAY!

bahaha. I'm going home ;D

My boss called me a muppet today.

omg.

Working up at Park City Mountain Resort.... Sucks.


When I come home, I'm gonng reinstall some certain things and blahblahblah, to play a certain game...to see how it all goes.

This is all.

It's been a long time.


Anyway, nothing much has happened within the past month. I start a new job tomorrow with a schedule that works out for me. It will be from 08:00 - 16:00 training, then a regular schedule of 14:00 - 23-00.

I found a bag of ecstacy on my car the other day when I was leaving the store around 01:00. Went in to buy some beer with a friend, came out and found that on my trunk, someone had left a sandwich bag with a few pills. Green dollars, 10 parts MDMA, should be interesting on a good night. There was also a blue christmas tree, but that tested out to be 1 part Caffeine and 1 part MDMA.

Lucky day

Called in SICK to work today. Methinks I might have a stomach ulcer.

i gave in and bought Guild Wars.


Swish.

I only love Casey now. I don't see very much of my Candice, but I love her too.

Bahaha. I love Casey.

I will be your shrink, of course. Going rate is -one article of clothing per half hour.

Rate increase of -one article of clothing per quarter hour will apply only on weekends.

Do you write checks?

Have you ever heard of Certegy? Have you every gotten your checks declined?

Bitch, I'm upper management at Certegy. I control your checks now. bwahahaha.

work is terrible. i miss spending nights out, since i'm working second shift. i've also been pulling 16 hour days this holiday.

just stopping in to say hello to those who still read this godforsaken journal.
hello to my kittykat, my kevins, my cedric, and my sammath.

p.s. Happy New Years ;D

I found something that made me smile.

"Lost" by Jordan, aka Tripnosis
Lost since I lost you

Where did this all-go wrong?

All the depression, the pain

How did I survive?

Death almost took me after

The cancer I found my cure

Pretending to forget, to hate, to lie

Where have you been over the year?

What has happened to you?

So much more distance in-between

How did I lose my other soul?

Trying to hide you from sight

A part of me, you’ll never leave

Something that wont let go

Why haven’t I burned you up?

How could I ever stop loving you?

The fake I was to hate…

Sorry for pretending…

What do you think of me?

Am I one you forgot?

Are you sill in this trap with me?

Or have you fallen out of love?

Only changed for the good

I’ve gotten stronger

Even without you… hard to believe isn’t it?

You’re the only one to heal my heart

Felt no love without you

Felt no pain

Only you to make me feel this way

Steal me again wont you?

Remind me what love really is

Something apart of me will never let go…

Please don’t let go of me

Shoot me a message or something on WoW.

Server: Daggerspine
Character : Pryss

Horde ftw ;D

Sorry for posting, but that was hilarious. Rofl

Eighteen Visions - Broken Hearted

I need a beginning again.
I want to feel how I used to feel.
When everything was in the palm of my hand.
And you were here with me.

You know I just don't get it.
You know I really don't get it at all.
That you would leave so sudden.
Well did you know you would leave me all alone?

I think we've fallen apart.
I don't know where I should start.
You left me here to be broken hearted.

Some days I wonder where I would be.
Cos I don't think it was wasted time.
I always thought you'd be waiting for me.
And now I'm facing the world alone.

You know I just don't get it.
You know I really don't get it at all.
That you would leave so sudden.
Well did you know you would leave me all alone?

I think we've fallen apart.
I don't know where I should start.
You left me here to be broken hearted.

I wonder what you are doin today.
I wonder if you could've ever changed.
I wonder if you still think of me, the way that it was, the way that it used to be.

I need a beginning again.
I think we've fallen apart.
I don't know where I should start.
You left me here to be broken hearted.
___________


The best part about summer is driving around with your windows rolled down, music blasting, and friends singing in the back. This song is especially fun to sing.

I had a terrible month in May. First of all, my cars' clutch went out. Booo! Repair bill was $1400, for parts and labor...
My A/C broke inside my flat =( Noo!
My computer's harddrive went out. Bye bye music/pics/everything! But I made up for that with a new computer.
My cellphone wouldn't accept software updates...and friend when brought into the VZW Tech. New phone ftw.

And omg. Last night I got pulled over. teehehe.